This week I've struggled with several emotions. Wednesday morning I walked into a badly lit, freezing cold gym in where we were having a recently called staff meeting. We sat in a circle- the normal buzz and laughter surrounded me- enjoying catching up with co-workers our talks of upcoming travel were dismissed quickly as the area director began to talk. He started out with a straight face reassuring us that no one had passed--- racing thoughts flooded through my body, knowing that whatever was about to come pouring out of his mouth would be important. Next he simply stated 'we will be closing our doors'. He continued to explain budget cuts, time lines and an array of pure clueless as we begin the process of transitioning our kids, finding new jobs and establishing unemployment.
I immediately thought 'where is my phone- I need to tell Jim, I have to talk to Jim'. The rest of the meeting was a blur- it eventually ended with an eerie quiet tension throughout the room. There was an elephant in the room- one in which none of us could quite describe.
Immediately we were to begin thinking about our next steps- as our site could be closed as early as the end of March. Along side of 65 of my coworkers I walked around with racing thoughts and a shocked stature.
That evening Jim came home early- we discussed my options- and through that conversation it was as though he perfectly painted and captured that ugly elephant that sat in our agency's gym hours before.
In that moment I felt optimistic and inspired- I cannot help but to smile and be thankful. I breath easier then I have in months and feel hopeful for the future.
Today while walking in the park with Jim and Putzi I couldn't help but close my eyes, breathe deep, bathe in the sun and smile. :)
Cheers! :)
**all pictures are personal***
No comments:
Post a Comment